Benson, Tetralogy of Fallot (Part 5) Chylothorax

Aaron and I decided that we would split the time during the day with Benson. One of us would get there early in the morning, the next would go after dinner, and stay until about 10:00 or so. Since he was still so little, and we needed rest, we left him at night in the capable hands of the nurses and slept at Aaron’s dad’s house. The next day we would switch, until I was able to resume nursing. Aaron started the first shift at night since I spent all day at the hospital with Benson during his surgery.

About half way through Aaron’s shift the first or second day after the surgery, and after they had started to feed him some of my expressed breastmilk, he called with some disturbing news. There was a complication in surgery. The drainage tubes in his chest were draining chylo– basically fat and cholesterol. Benson’s lymphatic system was damaged, and was unable to process the fat from my pumped breast milk, and it was leaking into his chest cavity. This condition is somewhat rare, and is called Chylothorax. Untreated, Benson would slowly be asphyxiated as the chylo built up around his lungs and crushed them. The nourishment that was the absolute best for him was suddenly deadly and he was put on a fat free diet. He was not allowed to nurse for 6 weeks, and the chest tubes were to stay in until he was no longer draining chylo.

I was devastated. And angry. FURIOUS. I worked SO hard to get him to nurse the first time, and I HATE pumping! And I wanted him to get the best nourishment possible and was being told that my milk as it was would kill him. I was ready to throw in the towel, right then and there! I continued pumping anyway, hoping for some sort of solution, and within a day or so, Benson was moved up a floor to the CSU. And I vented on Facebook.

PCMC has a great Lactation department. And they have state-of-the-art equipment. So they offered to “spin” my milk in a special centrifuge and remove all of the fat. He still needed the calories, so the fat-free breastmilk was then supplemented with formula. We started off with a fat-free formula called Enfaport. And the screaming began. Benson was usually a very calm baby, but nothing we did could soothe him. For days this continued. It was difficult to get him to sleep, and to stay asleep. Despite simethicon (sp? a generic Mylicon), and all of the other pain meds he was on, we could tell he was just plain uncomfortable, and would SCREAM every time we tried to feed him. And his diapers were GROSS. We were all just stumped. So, I felt prompted to ask if there were other formula options for Benson. They did some hunting and discussing with the nutritionist, and came up with Vivonex T.E.N., an adult liquid diet formula powder. It had the correct calorie count that he needed, so we gave it a try. Instant relief! Benson was soon a much happier baby. Hooray for switching formulas!

Aside from the oxygen, and an IV, a tubeless Benson. Still very swollen from surgery.

With that, Benson continued to rest up, the chest tubes were removed one by one, and Aaron and I continued to take turns staying with him. I continued to pump and to freeze. They didn’t need nearly as much milk as I was pumping since they were spinning and supplementing. They were using breastmilk and formula at a 50/50 ratio. I had them spin my milk, and then we froze it and used it as needed. My biggest worry was when we got home. If I was going to continue pumping, I wanted and needed to know that he could drink it somehow. The thought of pumping and storing and never being able to use it, and to put him on formula, depressed me and I felt very discouraged. My feelings were that if I couldn’t use my milk to feed my son, then I was done. I hated pumping enough to just give up once we were out of the hospital, unless we could find another option. There was no hospital nearby in Montana that had the ability to spin my milk. And I vented on Facebook again.

Once Benson was on a formula that was not distressing him, he bounced back very quickly. Apparently the typical stay at the hospital after heart surgery is 7-11 days, give or take. We were out in 8 days. Benson recovered well, and aside from the awful, horrible chylothorax (easily treatable, thankfully), he had no other complications. He had daily x-rays to make sure the chylo was clearing up (and it was), and when the day to be released came, it was bliss!!! We stuck around in SLC for another week just to make sure things were healing as they should.

Once Benson was out of the hospital, Aaron took the opportunity to go and work a little at the SLC airport. And I took on the 4 kids myself. We found some activities to do, some as an entire family, some with me and the boys, and some with my friend and mission companion Anna (Townsley) Clegg.We did Temple Square, visited the Air Force Museum, went to the park and had a picnic as a family, went to a farm and pet the animals… we tried to have some fun together!

To cut things short and save the technicalities for another post, I will just say this: between my friends on Facebook, the amazing Head Lactation Consultant, Ellen, my husband, and a generous sister in my branch, we were able to find a to spin my milk at home, using, of all things, our washing machine. And we were able to cut down the time he needed to be fat-free to 4 weeks instead of 6 (thanks to the persuasions of Ellen with the NP’s… because she knew I was not willing/emotionally capable of trying to pump those extra two weeks and take care of my other 3 kids and the house!). I also was able to build up quite the stockade of fat-free milk to take home with me and tide me over as long as possible. We ended up only needing to spin 3 days worth of milk, and we were done! And on May 12th, Benson was allowed to nurse again. Well, to try to nurse again, anyway! And he only had one hiccup and transitioned nicely back to nursing instead of the bottle. It was a marvelous day! With that, Benson was finally a “normal” baby.

Bountivores!

A few weeks ago, at my sister and mom’s recommendation, we watched the documentary Forks over Knives. The basic gist of the film was that eating meats and dairy increase your risk for heart disease and cancer exponentially. After watching it, Aaron said, “Interesting, but I am not giving up my meat! I like my meat!” BUT he also thought that adding more plant-based foods wouldn’t be a bad idea. I also found it interesting, and wondered if I could start eating in that direction. I knew that going 100% “plant based” was asking a little much of myself and my family, and would be nearly impossible to stick to. But I wanted to cut back, definitely. After eating several meat heavy dishes last weekend, Aaron came out of the blue and said words I NEVER thought I would hear,

What if we tried living 100% off of Bountiful Baskets?”

What?

We wouldn’t cut out meat entirely, and we’d keep milk (I like your yogurt!) and eggs, but I think it would be interesting to try it. This is probably my ‘meated’ out self talking right now, but I’m willing to try it.”

The root of this desire of his (and mine) is two-fold. We want to be healthier, and to take care of our hearts. It’s a promise made to Benson. AND, we would like to lose weight before we go to Kentucky for Christmas. There are other health concerns as well, but basically, we just want to be better.

This was my chance to try something I’ve wanted to for a while. My biggest concern was getting enough protein. While we’ll be having a big “MEAT MEAL” once every couple of weeks, we still needed a source for beans and lentils and grains. Those don’t get offered often (aside from breads, which we will continue to get) through Bountiful Baskets. I told him how I would probably need to buy lentils (as a ground beef substitute) to make it happen (we have a whole bunch of canned beans right now, and brown rice and wheat berries). BUT then, we wouldn’t be living completely off of BB. Hmmm….

And so I got onto Bountiful Baskets to see what was available for this week.

LENTILS!

It was destiny.

So, this week we contributed for 3 baskets. Our current max per week has been 2. And we contributed for a case of Mangos, a gallon of Organic Spanish Olive Oil, 25 lbs of Lentils, and a Guacamole Pack. For our family of 6. It should be interesting! To help myself be more accountable and to stick to it, I will be doing a weekly menu round up on Saturday after we pick up our baskets. I will post it here, but also will be posting occasionally to the Bountiful Baskets Blog to help others use their baskets as well.

What was also interesting was what came up in our nightly scripture reading as a couple. You guessed it. We came to Doctrine and Covenants section 89. The Word of Wisdom. Here are a few of the verses:

10 And again, verily I say unto you, all wholesome herbs God hath ordained for the constitution, nature, and use of man—

 11 Every herb in the season thereof, and every fruit in the season thereof; all these to be used with prudence and thanksgiving.

 12 Yea, flesh also of beasts and of the fowls of the air, I, the Lord, have ordained for the use of man with thanksgiving; nevertheless they are to be used sparingly;

 13 And it is pleasing unto me that they should not be used, only in times of winter, or of cold, or famine.

 14 All grain is ordained for the use of man and of beasts, to be the staff of life, not only for man but for the beasts of the field, and the fowls of heaven, and all wild animals that run or creep on the earth;

 15 And these hath God made for the use of man only in times of famine and excess of hunger.

 16 All grain is good for the food of man; as also the fruit of the vine; that which yieldeth fruit, whether in the ground or above the ground—

 17 Nevertheless, wheat for man, and corn for the ox, and oats for the horse, and rye for the fowls and for swine, and for all beasts of the field, and barley for all useful animals, and for mild drinks, as also other grain.

 18 And all saints who remember to keep and do these sayings, walking in obedience to the commandments, shall receive health in their navel and marrow to their bones;

 19 And shall find wisdom and great treasures of knowledge, even hidden treasures;

 20 And shall run and not be weary, and shall walk and not faint.

 21 And I, the Lord, give unto them a promise, that the destroying angel shall pass by them, as the children of Israel, and not slay them. Amen.

I love that the produce we get from Bountiful Baskets is produce in season. And, I love that our family will be eating the word of wisdom, even down to the eating meat sparingly. The Lord did not forbid meat, but to eat it sparingly. We can do that.

I am excited and nervous for this new adventure. It will be a challenge to try to make school lunches on this new diet for the kids, and a challenge to putt meals together quickly some nights, so any suggestions are welcomed!

And with that, we are officially BOUNTIVORES!

Benson, Tetralogy of Fallot, Part 3

Coming home was wonderful! However, with coming home with a sick, immunologically challenged baby came new worries, the biggest of which was how to keep him well. Any kind of respiratory illness could easily land him in the hospital. Frequent use of hand sanitizer and staying at home except for the weekly trip to Great Falls for cardiology appointments was put into full force.

When you have a child in school, however, keeping germs away proved MUCH more difficult than we imagined. Soon after we got home, Benson ended up with what started out as a cold. Then the coughing hit. And HARD. I kept Benson right next to me at night in a pack-n-play, and every time he would start coughing, the worry set in. These were not regular coughs, but horrid coughing spells lasting a minute or more. He couldn’t hardly get a breath. And he was turning horrible shades of blue as these coughing spells would happen. The coughing was particularly bad at night, but he also almost always had a coughing fit any time he would wake up. He couldn’t catch his breath. It was terrifying. Once the fit stopped, he was able to return back to normal, but it left Aaron and I both shaken up every single time.

And it didn’t seem to get better with time, either.

The coughing lasted week, after week. And no matter how much we brought it up to our cardiologist or the doctor at the walk in clinic, they didn’t seemed as concerned as we felt they should be. The biggest problem was that he never would cough when we saw the doctors.

The coughing and turning blue made Aaron and I very anxious for Benson to have his heart surgery and get his heart repaired. We wanted it sooner than later. MUCH sooner than later. He was really scaring us with the coughing spells, and we didn’t want a major TET spell (where he would turn blue and go limp. They can be deadly.) We couldn’t wait for the call that told us to pack up and go.

While it remains officially undiagnosed, I suspect very strongly that our little heart-challenged baby had contracted whooping cough. Infants don’t always produce the whooping sound, and Benson didn’t. But the recordings of coughs I heard sounded just like the coughs that Benson had. And the symptoms– cold-like symptoms for a week or two followed by week after week after week of coughing– were dead on what we were experiencing. Scary for a normal baby, terrifying for our little blue-baby!

Finally, towards the end of March, every time I would finish nursing him (he went to full-time nursing sometime the first week of March), he started to have a coughing fit and would throw-up everything he ate. It lasted all day. So I called our Cardiologist, and he had us come down the next day with an overnight bag, just in case. And we were admitted, just in case he got dehydrated.

And he didn’t have but one or two coughing spells.

Go figure.

The coughing eased up after over a month, although it never quite went away, and then towards the end of March we got our much anticipated phone call. April 11th. Benson would be 2 1/2 months old. The surgery would happen. The relief was tangible.

We had a couple of weeks to get things in order– Aaron had a business trip for several days the week before, I needed to get 3 weeks worth of work for Kade, pack our family, clean the house, etc. We decided that this time, our family needed to go down together. Imposing on our Branch to help with the kids for 3 weeks was too much, being apart from each other for 3 weeks again was too much. Being alone through this ordeal was too much. And we had a place to stay, with Aaron’s dad, again. So, we all planned on going.

Things that happened as a family between February 18th (when we got home with Benson) and April 7th (when we left for SLC):

* We arrive home, and Kade promptly gets sick with a stomach bug. He shares it with me.
* I get less sleep than I ever have with a newborn, as I am pumping, feeding, and NOT napping
* We got our first call from school today… some girls were teasing Kade during recess and told him the devil was going to come out of the sidewalk and get him. He was very frightened (lots of tears!) and concerned for himself and for his friends and teachers.
* We bless Benson at church, and have a lot of friends and family come up and celebrate with us. The baby blessing was beautiful. Aaron held up a blue crayon next to Benson’s mouth, and we realized just how blue Benson really was. It made me very nervous and scared. Food was provided by Bountiful Baskets :-)
* We FINALLY got internet at home!
* Benson gets sick, and stays sick.
* He is admitted for one night to monitor his coughing/throwing up. He does neither. :-/
* His surgery is scheduled for April 11th.
*We watched General Conference at home for the first time ever
*We watched the UK/U of L Basketball championship at home, the first basketball game we’ve ever watched at home ever. My Alma mater, UK, won. Of course!
* We got our first major EOB. $65,000.
*Kade turned 6

 

 

 

Down to ONE!!!

A few weeks ago, I decided it was time. Olivia had been ready off and on since before Benson was born to be potty trained. She was able to use the toilet no problem, just not consistently. I didn’t want to do it, however, until Benson came, because I didn’t want the frustration of regression, and I was hugely pregnant and didn’t have the energy to deal with it. And then, Benson came, and with him, a slew of unanticipated complications. So I wasn’t going to worry about it until after his surgery. So three weeks ago I decided it was time. So I cleared my schedule for an entire week, didn’t go ANYWHERE, and we focused on one thing. Getting Olivia out of diapers.

And, I am proud to announce that we are down to one in diapers! She was a breeze to train! Within a couple of days, she was only having accidents when she was outside playing. A couple days after that, she was freaking out when she had to go when she was outside. And a day or two after that, she was completely dry at night. Way to go principessa!

Our crazy day! And a Benson update

Yesterday was CRAZY!

We started the day with a 45 seconds (yes 45 SECONDS!) consultation with the urologist for Benson (Aaron) while I shopped at Target, Charlie’s 5 year and Benson’s 6 month check-up and shots (me) while Aaron shopped at Wal-Mart and got the oil changed in Clifford. That wound up taking longer than we expected, so Benson, Charlie, and I walked from the Doc’s to Walmart (1 mile). We then had a quick lunch, and I had a play date with my friend Beth and her kids while Aaron took Benson to see Dr. Ruggerie (our cardiologist). THAT appointment went over (more on that later), so I had to walk a mile with Kade for his eye appointment while Beth graciously watched Livvy and Beaners. Aaron met me at the Opticians, and we picked up the kids, played at the park, met up with Eric and Amy and their 3 girls (including new baby Everley), then to Sams, back up to Eric’s house to pick some things up, drive thru at McDonald for 10 cent ice cream cones for the kids (at 9:45 p.m.!) and then back home to Shelby.

Through this CRAZY schedule, the kids were amazing!!!

We got home at 11:00, and were we exhausted!!! LOL

Benson update: While he was at the cardiologists, he had an echo cardiogram. Then the Doctor listened to his heart. And he was perplexed. He was  hearing something he wasn’t seeing on the echo, and ordered another one. Basically, he discovered more pulmonary stenosis (narrowing) right as the arteries are leading to the lungs, which is causing added stress to his already compromised and leaky pulmonary valve. We’re not sure if this narrowing is new or was always there, but it is causing the blood to be pushed back through the pulmonary valve more than we were anticipating. His valve is already starting to fail, much earlier than we were expecting it to. Basically this means that instead of having his valve replaced in 10-15 years, we’re looking at 1-3 years. Another open heart surgery much sooner than we wanted. Depending on how his pulmonary arteries improve/continue to narrow, there may be other procedures done as well. Not news we needed/wanted to hear, but at least we have a heads up anyway… :-/

 

Bountiful Baskets!!!

OK… If you know me, you know I am a fanatic. About Bountiful Baskets. A friend mentioned something about Bountiful Baskets Food Co-Op coming to Great Falls on Facebook back in August, and I was curious. So when it arrived in September, I volunteered/trained and I brought it back with me to Shelby!

What is Bountiful Baskets? It is a food co-op, and each site contributes towards baskets. The money contributed goes towards purchasing fresh produce at wholesale prices, and takes out the middle-man. Every two weeks, we get a basket full of 4-6 fruits, and 4-6 veggies, worth between $35-$65, for $15 (or, $16.50). And then they offer breads, and cases of fruits and veggies as they are in season.

In our little community, and other communities, the savings and quality is huge!

I opened our site the first weekend of November. My family has gone from barely finishing 1 basket every 2 weeks, to finishing 3 baskets every 2 weeks, plus breads (which Aaron likes better than the bread I bake… lol), plus the extras as we want. It has been fabulous! More to come as I get pictures!

Benson– Tetralogy of Fallot Surprise (Part 2)

I left off just when Benson had had his heart cath done. It really is amazing– the doctors inserted a catheter up the major artery in his leg and weaved it up to his heart into the pulmonary valve. Then they stuck a small balloon through the catheter and pumped it several times. We got that on video, and it was incredible. That was on Wednesday. The improvement was very noticeable. His O2 levels were stabilized and the nurses were able to start weaning him off of the O2, and off of his other drugs as well. On Thursday, they were able to start feeding him. He took a bottle and drank a little (not enough) and so they inserted what is called an “NG” tube up his nose and (Nasogastric tube– it goes into the nose, and straight into his stomach) “gavage” or “boulous” fed him. He remained in the CICU (Cardiac Intensive Care Unit).

I arrived Friday, just as they were ready to move him up to the Cardiac Surgery Unit. Lest I forget, I must thank my brother-in-law Eric for giving up his birthday weekend (and my sister-in-law Amy for giving up Eric!) to drive me down to SLC as I was still loopy and on drugs and recovering from the C-Section and was not allowed to drive. I was lucky in a way that I really didn’t have to see Benson hooked up to many tubes aside from the normal pulse-ox and lead wires. They removed the umbilical wire just as I got there.It was good to see Aaron, and amazing to see Benson. You must remember, I saw him for about 15 minutes max before they wisked him away to SLC on Monday. I hadn’t seen or really held my baby since he had been born. After I had been there about an hour, they moved Benson up to the CSU floor (something surgery unit). We spent some time there, and then headed back to Aaron’s dad’s place.

This was the first time I saw Benson since he had been flown to SLC. It was an amazing moment!

As I mentioned earlier, I never really got to hold Benson before he was taken away. This was the first time. It was surreal!

Aaron left early Saturday morning, a bitter-sweet departure to say the least. We decided that especially since Benson wasn’t nursing yet that I would just sleep at Aaron’s dad’s house, and get to the hospital as early as I could and spend the day there. I was really grateful for having my own pump, as there were a lot of pumping moms on the floor, and I didn’t feel like fighting over the pump, or waiting.

Here is a picture with Benson and his feeding tube. AND no wires (he had just had a bath. This was a real treat to see him not hooked up!)

Once I had arrived, the Speech Therapists began working on getting Benson to eat orally. Because he missed the golden window of opportunity where sucking was a reflex, we had to teach him all over again. Not only that, but nursing and eating takes a lot of energy, and energy was at a premium with his compromised heart and O2 levels. So, we started by giving him a pacifier, and having him try a bottle and take as much as he could– 5 ml, 10 ml at a time. Painstaking. And each time he drank from a bottle, it would wipe him out for 6 hours, so every 3 we would just gavage feed him through the NG tube. Thankfully, within a few days, he was able to take every other feed by bottle, and then two feeds in a row. Even if he wasn’t able to drink the whole bottle, every time he was awake and alert, I tried that bottle.

The one thing we were really disappointed in with the speech therapist was that Benson was NO CLOSER TO TALKING THAN HE WAS BEFORE SEEING THE THERAPIST! Hehehehehe Just kidding. They were amazing!

In the mean time, the nurses tried to teach me how to insert the NG tube in case Benson pulled it out, and I think that was one of the most traumatic experiences of my life. Benson has a really narrow nasal canal, and the nurses always had the NG tube on the left side. Well, they wanted me to practice on the right side, so I tried. And I couldn’t get it in. And the nurse couldn’t get it in. And Benson was screaming in pain. And the head nurse couldn’t get it in on the right side, either. Poor Benson was NOT happy. Finally, they put it back into the left side, and we decided that if I ever needed it inserted, then I would come back in. We didn’t think he’d need it long.

I also was working on increasing my milk, mostly by pumping and pumping and pumping. I really grew to hate that pump.

It was amazing to hold this little baby boy, and to watch him. So much pain and suffering already, but so strong. So adorable. SO MUCH HAIR! Brown hair, with blond tips. Holding him was so different than holding my other newborn babies… Maybe because I didn’t take having him in our family for granted as much. I knew that his surviving was a miracle– even 10 years earlier, or giving birth in the wrong place (like my little town), would have been a death sentence for him. It was a miracle to have him in my arms.Yet, being away from the family was horrible. And lonely. I didn’t feel like calling anybody, talking to anybody. Things were still raw, and I was still trying to get a grasp on what all was happening to this precious little boy.

Each day was more of the same– an x-ray early in the morning, speech therapists, rounds by the doctors, questions, answers… The genetics team informed us that Benson was missing 1 1/2 genes, but nobody knows what those genes do. But all of the other genetic testing came back negative, so that was a huge relief.

We did have an hysterical experience! I had left to get some lunch, and when I came back, the nurses were changing his diaper. JUST before I got there, the nurse had him bare-bummed and aimedjust right.And he GOT her! AND the floor. It was incredible. Nice not to have to clean it up, though! LOL

Benson and his infamous explosion. It was classic. And hysterical (because it wasn’t me) AND gross! But, hysterical! Look at the distance!

On the Thursday after I got there, they were ready to release Benson. He was eating well orally, and was improving. I had yet to nurse him, but I was ready to try with him once we were out, and once he was taking all of his feeds by mouth.

Benson was discharged on the 8th, on Thursday, after a HUGE hullabaloo about taking home a pulse-ox or not, getting O2 prescribed (just in case, and for the drive home), getting your drugs prescribed (Propranolol) and packing up. He was 10 days old when he finally was released from prison… ahem… the hospital. Removing all of the leads and wires was exhilarating! My son looked ALMOST like a normal kiddo!

Bringing Benson home was a completely new challenge. He was a night owl, and was getting more alert and HUNGRY! I had a very hard time keeping up with what he was wanting to eat, so had to supplement a little. I was quickly able to get him to take all of his feeds orally, however, and by Saturday, was able to remove the HORRID NG tube. Seeing his little face, his little body, seemingly perfect, was amazing and liberating. I also started trying to nurse. Just like with the bottle feeds initially, the nursing was exhausting for him. I started once a day, for several days, and then would bottle feed until he was full.

Benson taking a nap while having some tummy time, with his K9 buddy!

Spending the alone time with Benson, no beeping machines or alarms, was amazing. And Grandpa was really enjoying the bonding with little dude as well. It was a special time. I spent a lot of time just watching him.

Valentines day came while I was in SLC, and Aaron went all out and sent me roses. 4 dozen, plus a white one. One dozen for each of our living children, and a white one for our little angel Madeline. I cried.

We stuck around in SLC for a week, just to make sure the ballooning was sticking and that Benson was growing and progressing. We had a well baby check-up on the Monday, and then met with the Cardiologist on Friday.

The appointment with the cardiologist was a little disheartening. They did an echo and an EKG, and Dr. P was a little concerned that the ballooning was not holding well. While we had been told that the repair typically happened around 4-6 months, he anticipated we would be back within a month or a month and a half. And he wanted Benson on O2 on the way home in the car.

I felt like crying.

The next day, Bill and I packed up Benson and his amazing accumulation of stuff, and headed to Idaho Falls, where we were going to meet up with Aaron and the kids, who would then take us the rest of the way home the next day. This was the first time the kids were going to meet Benson, and the first time I had really seen the kids and Aaron in 3 weeks. I was just as giddy to see them as they were to see me!

Kidletts are meeting their little baby brother for the first time!

Benson hated having the nasal canula in his nose for the oxygen. And after about 7 p.m., he did not want to be in the car. And, can I just say this? Pumping in the car is THE PITS. But we made it home with happy kids, and safely.

It was amazing to be back together as a family. Finally, reunited. And the kids loved having their baby brother at home. And mom. Olivia just kept repeating, “Mommy. Home. Glad. Home. Glad.” It was heart breaking.

Aaron’s favorite thing– cuddling and sleeping with the babe

Kade, delighted to feed Bens!

The two youngest

Charlie has a very tender spot in his heart for babies. He has been amazing with him!

Finally, I would be remiss if I failed to mention and to thank all of those who helped us out, whether it was watching our kids during the day, bringing us meals, giving us money for travel and medical expenses, and especially prayers. Your prayers reached heaven and blessed our little Benson, and our lives. There were so many miracles, great and small, and our friends were some of the greatest miracles of all.

Throughout this whole ordeal, Aaron and I felt so much love, from everybody, and especially from our Father in Heaven. It doesn’t matter what struggles we go through, His love is so real, and He is aware of our needs, and what is best. We felt God so closely throughout all of this, and our faith was strengthened as we prayed and watched over this little baby of ours, and His.

Charlies 5th Birthday party

Charlie has turned 5! Along with celebrating his birthday we had another fun surprise. My Brother and his wife had their 3rd baby. Not only did Charlie and Everley share a due date but now the share the same birthday and same doctor that delivered them. Everley Caroline Matthews born July 13,2012. She is 6 lbs. 4oz, 18.5 inches long. Charlie was a bit bigger – 6 lbs. 13 oz. Charlie has been fascinated with spiders. I am not talking about Spider Man or the Amazing Spider Man – but real spiders that crawl around on the ground. We have book after book from the library. So Charlie wanted a spider themed party. Amaree first had the kids play like they were spiders and grabbing their prey out of the web, spinning them around and then “biting them”, then of course eating them.

We had the kids play pin the insect on the spiders web. Not sure if they enjoyed the coloring of the insect more or the pinning it on the web more.

    

Next we took an idea from Kades teacher from last year. We took Oreo cookies and twisted them in half, had the kids put red licorice for legs, and put small semi-sweet chocolate eye balls on the top after putting the other side of the cookie back on.

             

Next we had the kids hit the pi̱ata that Amaree had made Рit was called Arachnious-Charlious! the kids loved hitting it. Especially since there was candy in it.

For lunch we used the same idea with the Oreos and made little PB and jam sandwiches with pretzel legs.  By this time the lids were so overlaoded with candy that they did not eat much.

Finally we brought out the cake and had Charlie blow out the candles. It seemed like 2 hours was too much time but it was just enough to get all this done. We are grateful that everyone came over to help us celebrate Charlies birthday!  Here is to 5 wonderful years with the Beaners!

 

Benson, Tetralogy of Fallot surprise! Part 1

As almost all who might read this blog (all 2 of you) know, Benson was born with a congenital heart defect. And we had no idea. Sometimes these defects are caught, and if you read the previous post, the ultrasound techs had a slight suspicion that something was wrong, but not enough evidence to warrant any concern. And I post this, not to rehash information that you’re probably aware of, but to have something out there on the web for another worried TOF parent, to know they aren’t alone.

Benson was to be my 4th c-section. Kade was an emergency, Charlie was breech (I was trying for a V-BAC), and after that, I really had no other options in Great Falls other than a c-section. I started having some Braxton-Hicks with Benson about 2 weeks before the scheduled c-section date. I have never had Braxton-Hicks before. And thankfully, these never hurt. But we live over an hour away from a big hospital, and not only was Benson going to be my 4th c-section, I had also had a T-cut incision (both vertical and horizontal cuts) which put me at a greater risk for hemorrhaging. So, although initially I was hopeful that I was going into labor, I soon got over that and prayed that baby would stay in until the scheduled date.

He stayed in. Thankfully!

When it was time to go and have the baby, we left the other kids in the loving care of my parents, and we headed to Great Falls the night before. And I threw out my back. We hobbled to the labor and delivery floor, and got things going. I tell you, if you HAVE to go the c-section route, the no-contractions part is a nice perk! I got on the surgery table, and as they were cutting me open I heard my OB proclaim that my uterus was stretched paper thin. A nurse later told me she could see the baby’s hair through it! Scary! Everything else was progressing text-book, surprise, it’s a boy!, when they then cut the umbilical cord. They let me do the token “hold your baby” for a couple of seconds, and then the nurses whisked him off.

This next part is from Aaron from the journal we started for Benson, as I was still recovering from the c-section and the anesthesia:

We got to walk into the operating room to get set-up. They let me come in after everything was done. At 8:17, Dr. Lee delivered you by c-section. Man, child, you had some hair! The nurse let mom see you for a sec, then over to the warming bed. After a little clean-up, you were grunting and not crying. You were getting pretty blue. I held you as we walked to our room. You got your first shots, eye medication, all the while receiving O2. The nurses made the call and you were taken to the NICU. Once in the NICU, many tests later, we were talking with the cardiologist. The official medical issue is called Tetralogy of Fallot (TOF). And with that understanding, a plane ride was ordered and I left your mother in recovery and flew to SLC. Before we left, your Uncle Eric came in and we wanted to give you a blessing. The nurse asked if Eric was a minister. If not he was not allowed in. I said, “He is now.” It was funny. He came in and we gave you the blessing. Then off in the cart to a ride in the ambulance. We went Code B– lights and sirens– to the airport. The flight over was bumpy, but you did great.”

Benson’s Private Jet Ride

 

I was told as Dr. Lee was stitching me up that Benson had been sent to the NICU, and once I had recovered I talked a little with our Pediatric Cardiologist, Dr. Ruggerie, about what was going on. I was informed that Benson would be sent to SLC. I didn’t even really get to hold him aside from that initial meet-and-greet. Once I had enough feeling in my feet to at least be wheeled down to the NICU, the kind nurses took me down to see the baby. It was awful. There were all sorts of wires and tubes already all over my precious boy, a breathing tube taped to his mouth.

Not exactly the first picture of your baby that you want…

Not how you want to see your much anticipated newborn.

We named him Benson Crain Shepherd Matthews (Benson was Aaron’s grandmother’s maiden name and his dad’s middle name, Crain is a family name on Aaron’s side, Shepherd was my grandmother’s maiden name)

The nurses were not able to let me hold my baby– all I could do was touch his precious little toes. Dr. Ruggerie told me they would be doing some genetic testing on Benson once he was in SLC to see if he had a condition called DiGeorge Syndrom (thankfully, it tested negative!), as TOF commonly occurred with DiGeorge.

While Aaron was in SLC, I was in the hospital, beginning my detested relationship with the breast-pump, and recovering from surgery. I was released Thursday morning, and headed down to SLC early Friday.

An abbreviation of Aaron’s experience in SLC with you:

“…after we landed in SLC, we got another ambulance ride to Primary Children’s Medical Center. It was a mad rush when we got here. Doctors and Nurses, 12 of them around… How did it look– there is an adage– no man is an island. You proved it wrong, my son. You are the island and you have a sea of doctors that want to help you. And they did. Now is a 48 hour waiting game… (Jan 31) No change. Many of the drugs you are on have been brought so you are not as red. Your vitals are stable. If it was not for your heart issues… you are perfect. I sit here in this room next to you and think– wow– how lucky I am that Heavenly Father has blessed us with you in this time where we can help you. The Lord has given us understanding/wisdom about our bodies…(Feb 1)… Talked with the cardiology team and have some paths to take… we have 3 options to take. Option 1 is a full repair. It has to happen anyway. Downside– it is really risky at the onset. We need to watch and then you would need more repairs down the road. However, it would be fixed. Option 2– a BT Shunt. This to me was/is the most risky. The risky part is being so far away up in Shelby. If something was to happen [i.e. a clot or the shunt were somehow damaged] it would be a death sentence for you. 3rd option is to place a balloon in your heart to open up the pulmonary valve. This has less risk for the long term issues. It is the least invasive. But of course, there are issues with this procedure as well [if it was ineffective, then we would have no option but to do one of the first options.]“

He had a reaction to the Prostaglandin E1 that was used to keep his ductus arteriosus (umbilical artery) open. While red and blotchy looking, it didn’t seem to cause him any discomfort. Once they were able to stabilize his O2 levels, they were able to stop the medication, and the discoloring went away.

The doctors could not agree upon which path would be the best for Benson in the long run. So they gave Aaron the options, told him to consult with me, and to consult with the Lord in the Meditation room.

The machines keeping Little Dude alive before they did the balloon valvuloplasty.

Once it was explained, your grandfather and I went into the meditation room and prayed. He then gave me a blessing. During the blessing I was told the right thing will be done. I felt immediately Heavenly Fahter’s love around me. It is going to be OK. I called your mother and we talked about all the options. We did weigh all of them and went with the balloon. The first reason was it is a starting point. It was less invasive. And if it works we can go home soon. So it was thumbs up and sign on the dotted line. 30 minutes later, it took 5 people to wheel your bed and all of your equipment down a floor to the Cath lab. I kissed you and they gave me a pager with a ‘Go Away’. 3 hours later, the pager went off…I walked in as they were getting you all hooked back up. Your O2 was at 98%. You look great. It is now 2 hours since the procedure. you feel a little bit better– pinker. You look healthy. At this point all medication has been stopped. Your levels are stable. We do make changes to your liquids that are called TPN. However, it has been labled by me– Mountain Dew, with a kick. It is your mixture of things you need, from minerals, vitamins, lipids, protein. It is a lot better for you than real Mountain Dew… Your room has a joyous ring to it my son. The team– your team– is so enthused on how well you are doing after this. We keep weaning you off the ventilation. Slowly you are showing great signs of improvement. The Lord’s had has been shown today.”

Daddy finally getting to hold Benson

 

Banana Splits for Ryan

On Facebook, I was invited to an event that I could not pass up. Banana Splits for Ryan. Basically, Ryan was a toddler with Downs Syndrome and also a congenital heart defect (CHD), and the heart defect was so bad that the doctors did all they could but were unable to repair it. The parents made the heart breaking decision to put a DNR order on him. People kept asking what they could do for the family, and the family’s response was to go and create a memory with their families and have a banana split for dinner– no chicken, no broccoli, no rice. Just a banana split.

I thought, “This is something I can do!” While I have never met Ryan, nor will I have a chance to meet him as he passed away last week, I did want to honor him and other CHD angels. So we had banana splits for dinner, and created a memory! And the kids thought it was the most wonderful thing– they could not believe their luck!

Benson, sadly, was asleep throughout the dinner. But he had mashed bananas for dinner a little bit later (Sorry, no pictures of him this time!)

Feel free to join us and hundreds of thousands others in creating a fun family memory with your family in honor of little baby Ryan! Just click on the link above and join in on the fun :-)

 

The MOTHER of ALL updates!

Okay… so we’ve been slacking. BIG time. What can we say, other than we’ll do better? SO… I am just going to try to update as thoroughly and quickly for our sakes. You can choose to read it or not, as it will most likely be a long entry, but it is what it is. A year and a half or more, condensed into one entry. I imagine there will be a couple of expansions on a few topics, but those will follow later.

I will just start with January 2011 and go forward from there, month by month as I remember it (I may actually start liking Timeline on FB after all!!!)

2011

January

- Olivia turns 1
-The never-ending winter continues
-Aaron and I turn 31
-I finish Bill’s quilt made out of Cindy’s old shirts

 

February

-We took a quick trip to SLC as a family and spent time with Aaron’s dad and “Special” Eric Olsen

-My Grandparents and Aunt Kathy and Uncle Bob were in a car accident. My grandmother suffered very serious injuries
-Kade gets glasses. They last a week before they’re broken.
-Aaron becomes a certified EMT First Responder Ambulance and begins working part time for the Toole County Ambulance as a “Hobby”
-I slid off the road into a ditch, but we survived without nary a scratch. I did manage to break the CV joint, however…

March

-My Grandpa unexpectedly passed away, so the kids, Sharon Alfrey and I take an impromptu trip to Mesa for his funeral. While it was a sad reason to go down, it was wonderful to see all of my family and introduce them to Olivia. I also got to meet my brother’s wife Holly and their baby, Rockwell. We went to the Phoenix Zoo with Clarissa West, and got to see my Grandma, who was still in the hospital. She was not doing well.
-I do a sourdough display for our stake’s Emergency Preparedness Festival. It was fun doing all that baking!

April

-My Grandma joined my Grandpa 23 days after he passed away. This time I leave the boys in Shelby and Livvy and I fly to Arizona for her funeral. I go to the Easter Pageant at the Mesa Temple, something my Grandparents helped to start so many years ago.
-Kade turns 5. He requests a Volcano cake for the third year running!
-Olivia is absolutely obsessed with the boy’s underwear. She is frequently found with 10 or more pair around her arms and legs.

May

-We have fun with our bird feeder and are able to watch many different types of birds stop on their migratory routes.
-Kade learned how to ride his bike without training wheels
-Livvy’s hair is long enough for pig-tails

June

-We discover that we’re pregnant with baby-the-last! And have miscarriage fears. Thankfully, there was no miscarriage.
-We celebrate 6 years of happily wedded bliss
-Clarissa Layton West and her little guy came to visit
-A school bus full of kids gets toppled over by the wind. Aaron is able to help out transporting kids to the local hospital.
-I made aprons for the kiddos
-I tried making Dandelion Jelly– interesting!
-Aaron installs flashing lights on the Neon for the Ambulance.
-Aaron buys a grill!
-A deer visits our yard.

July

-Solomon and his buds and Natalie and Emma Boelter come and visit!
-I start baking for the Farmers Market
-I enter several things into the fair, and win Rookie of the Year :)
-We buy Ladybugs to help eat all the aphids. That was fun!
-Charlie turns 4 years old!

August

-I make Applebutter for the first time. And dilly beans. And dill pickles.
-Kade starts Kindergarten!
-We went camping
-Vacation in Seattle– and driving, OMSI, swimming, vomiting (Livvy only,) family reunion (walking the beach, gutting crabs, armory museum, fortress exploring), Exploring Port Townsend, Ferry, Space Needle, Pacific Science Center, Aquarium, Pike’s Market, a cruise, Monorail, EMP, traffic up hill in Seattle, Woodland Zoo, another family reunion, meeting friends, mansion living, good food, Silverwood today, camping tomorrow … full vacation!
-I try my very first Bountiful Baskets! And I start to train to open a new site in Shelby

September

-Olivia is obsessed with the Muppet’s Mahna-Mahna. We watch it on YouTube what seems like a million times!
-A lot of canning– peaches, apple sauce, and lots of jams and jellies
-I wrap up baking for Farmer’s Market
-Aaron is gone at Rooseville for a week
-A quick trip to SLC for the sealing of Eric and Trena Olsen, as well as an unexpected date night to see the UT symphony and MoTab!
-A Jogging/Bike stroller is added to the family’s accumulation of strollers.
-Half-way through pregnancy

October

-Canned tomatoes from our garden
-We eat all of the tiny tiny carrots from our garden for dinner in one meal. But they were good!
-Kade and Charlie are “Thing 1″ and “Thing 2″ for Halloween. Olivia is the 3rd child to be a dragon for a halloween party early in the month. THEN, she is Cindy-Lou Who. Aaron is “Dr. Seuss” (we aimed for the Grinch… but that didn’t work out so well) and I was Daisy-Head Mayzie!
-Bountiful Baskets site secured
-Aaron gets his yearly “Raise”
-Have 21 week Ultrasound, some concerns by the tech. Tech was concerned that she wasn’t getting a good view of baby’s heart

November

-Diagnosed with “Marginal Insertion of Umbilical cord” and get to schedule another Ultrasound. Dr. not concerned about heart.
-7 years of knowing Aaron!
-Aaron goes to San Fransisco for a week for work, and gets to try REAL ramen.
-Olivia becomes absolutely OBSESSED with “Harrold and the Purple Crayon”
-Bountiful Baskets starts in Shelby with a BANG!
-I make a “TURKEY” shaped pumpkin pie for the branch Thanksgiving feast!
-WE BUY A NEW-TO-US CAR! And it’s not a Subruban… An EVEN BIGGER Ford Excursion. VERY comfortable!
-Buy a Christmas Tree
-We buy a citrus juicer, to help get through the inexpensive boxes of citrus suddenly available because of Bountiful Baskets! HEAVENLY
-Homemade Bagels for the first time. WHY DID WE WAIT THIS LONG?

December

-Have second ultrasound for Baby-the-last, and everything looks OK. Tech spends a little more time on the heart again, but baby isn’t moving and cooperating, so he is unable to get a good view. BUT things look OK from his and our Doc’s stand point.
-We make Tangerine-Lime-Pineapple sauce with our abundance of fruits, and don’t feel guilty about it!
-Olivia moves to a big bed and out of the crib!
-Our first Christmas here at home alone. We are invited to a Christmas Eve party and a Christmas party by friends in the branch. Great Christmas!
-Learn that my parents WILL come for the birth of their last grandchild from us at the end of January! EXCITED!
-We make our own Meyer Lemon and Orange extract! Funness!

2012

January

-Olivia turns 2
-The seal on our toilet breaks, water floods the bathroom.
-Lots of Braxton Hicks with this pregnancy the last few weeks
-We get a new Dyson!
-My parents come from Kentucky to help with the kids while we go have Baby!
-Aaron and I both turn 32
-Benson Crain Shepherd is born on January 30th. And we discover that he has a Congenital Heart Defect called “Tetralogy of Fallot” and is quickly life-flighted to SLC’s Primary Children’s Medical Center. Aaron goes with him, while I remain in the hospital recovering from my c-section (more details later!)
-My parents are a HUGE blessing to have here, as I leave for SLC a day after I am released from the Hospital.

February

-Benson has a balloon valvuloplasy in his Pulmonary valve, giving him a little time to get bigger.
-I spend two weeks in SLC with Benson, and Aaron returns to Shelby to take care of the kids. The members of our branch were SUPER-HEROS with all of the help they so freely offered and gave.
-We remove the feeding tube for Benson, as he nurses for the first time.
-We are grateful for the love, prayers, help, and money that flowed in from everywhere to help for Benson
-Kids and dad do really well while I’m gone, but we’re all happy to have our family back together finally. Kids are THRILLED to meet their new baby brother!
-Get our first call from school. Some girls were teasing Kade, and he was terrified and crying.

March

-Benson keeps getting sick. I suspect he contracts the whooping cough, as he has violent coughing spells that last a minute or two, and he turns blue (scary!) but he never coughs at the doctors so we never do receive a diagnosis. However, when he starts coughing hard enough to throw-up, it’s a ticket to the hospital. Of course, then he stops coughing as much and we have a calm night at the hospital.
-WE GET THE INTERNET AT HOME!
-Weekly trips to GF for cardiology appointments
-Aaron leaves for a 5 day business trip.
-We schedule Benson’s heart repair for 2 1/2 months, much sooner than the 4-6 months we were initially told. While worried, we are also very relieved. His coughing really has us scared.
-UK wins the NCAA Basketball championship!

April

-Kade turns 6! We get him a nice, big bike, which he promptly declares he hates. (And continues to say that until he figures out how to stop on it.)
-We leave for 3 weeks in SLC as a family for Benson’s heart repair on April 11th and get to spend time with Aaron’s dad. We’re grateful to have a place to stay.
-Benson is admitted a day early as a precaution after his sedated echo when they discover his blood oxygen level drops to 40% after a coughing fit.
-Surgery goes well, and Benson suddenly looks like a pink baby, but has a complication from surgery– Chylothorax. No breastmilk for 4-6 weeks.
-We try to find fun things for the kids to do while we’re in SLC. Airforce Museum, Ikea, and a few other activities. Lots of parks.
-Aaron and I work to find ways to spin my milk and remove the fat for Benson
-Benson is out of the hospital in a record 7 days. We stay home, and Aaron works a little while he is in SLC, which will allow us to go to KY for Christmas!
-We go home!

May

-We order a half-case of lemons and make lemonade concentrate. Next year, at least one whole box, if not two!
-We figure out how to spin my milk at home for the last few days after I ran out of the frozen spun milk from SLC.
-Life returns to normal.
-Benson is weaned off of the bottle and resumes nursing with only one little hiccup! GLAD to be done with the milk-man, aka pump.
-Aaron works a LOT this month between the Ambulance and problems at the ports.
-Kade finishes his first year of school. Next year, we’ll have two in school.

June

-Aaron and I make strawberry jam together. FUN!
-Boys start Swim Team. Hoping they actually learn how to swim this year!
-Kade loses his first tooth!
-Charlie learns how to ride a two-wheeler bike!
-We buy our VERY FIRST COMPUTER as a married couple. It’s nice to have something work so fast!
-7th anniversary!
-Benson gets his first hair-cut
-I french-braid Olivia’s hair into twin braids. It looks great!
-I start cross-country baking with my Sister in Law Holly and we make Blueberry cream cheese braids
-I buy a bike!
-Kade goes to Summer Camp. Charlie was supposed to go too, but they said he was too young and wouldn’t let him go.
-We go camping at our favorite site and bump into our old ward as they’re having their ward campout. LOTS of fun!
-We FINALLY have Kade’s birthday party and I make his 4th volcano cake.
-Kids play on slip-and-slide and in the mud during an impromptu cook-out with friends

Congratulations if you made it all the way through!!! There will be a couple of detailed posts coming later, particularly about Benson! And hopefully we can keep this up better this time!

Recipe – “Thai” Dyed Hawaiian Pizza

-          Preheat oven to 500 degrees (heat pizza stone if available)

-          Use a refrigerated crust or the following crust (homemade is better)

  • 1 C       warm water
  • 1 T        instant yeast
  • 2 T        Sugar
  • ½ t       Salt
  • 2 T        oil
  • 2 ½ C   Flour (more if needed)
  • Put Yeast in water to dissolve. Mix all other ingredients together then add water/yeast mixture until dough is no longer sticky, adding flour as needed. Knead 6 minutes by mixer on lower setting or 8-10 minutes by hand, until the dough passes a windowpane test. Put in an oiled bowl, cover, and let dough rest.

-          Sauce

  • 1/3 C    sweet chili sauce
  • ½ t       basil
  • ¼ t       garlic powder (OR fresh garlic minced to taste)
  • ¼ t       powered ginger or ½ t of fresh ginger
  • 1 ½ T    tomato sauce
  • Simmer on low while assembling the toppings. The longer it simmers the better the taste.

-          Toppings

  • ½ C      EACH – mango, pineapple, mandarin oranges, green and red peppers, roma tomatoes
  • ¼ C      EACH – chopped red onions, jalapeños
  • 2 C       Mozzarella cheese
  • ¼ C      Feta cheese
  • 1 C       grilled chicken or ham

 

Roll crust out on some parchment and cornmeal. Spread sauce and add toppings to likening then top with the mixture of cheese. Slide a cold baking sheet under the parchment paper and use it to slide the pizza on to the pre-heated stone in the oven (CRITICAL – that the baking sheet or stone is pre-heated to 500 degrees.) Bake for 12-15 minutes or until crust and cheese is golden brown. For an added touch put some olive oil in a dish with Italian seasonings and bush the outside of the pizza before you put it in the oven and once half way through the baking time. Pull out and let site for 5 minutes –then cut and serve.

This is by far the best pizza we have ever made. Our 3 kids love it – minus the jalapeños, but mom and dad like those.

Engineer in the making

So on Saturday Charlie and Kade decided to try their hand at engineering. Instead of making detailed plans and blue prints, building models and testing weight limits, getting the right building permits – they just built it!

As you can see there are of course limits to this bridge.

1) wieght

2) weather

3) slippage with plastic on plastic

Of course it worked just fine for Kade to cross. So Charlie wanted a turn and proceed across. About half way Charlie realized that this was not a good idea. Unfortunately the plastic parts already had started to slip and down Charlie went smacking his head on the white corner of the shoe holder. This resulted in one of Newton’s laws of motions and a trip to the ER.

He did beat his brother Kade on the number of stitches – 7. Kade had 5 the last time we went to the ER.

“Camping”

We promised the boys that we would go camping this weekend, only to have it rain and get really cold… SO, we put the tent up in their room and roasted mini-marshmallows before bed. That was good enough for the boys (AND we got to sleep in our comfy bed instead of an uncomfortable sleeping bag on the ground… And avoided the bugs, the hassle of cleaning up, fighting with them to go to bed… It was great!)

Roasting mini-marshmallows on a toothpick over a tea-light….

The art of roasting a mini-marshmallow…

Livvy Lou, eating mini-marshmallows with Dad

Sleeping in a sleeping bag, in a tent, in their room

Who needs a tent outside, when it will fit inside?

It’s been a long time…

Since we have moved back up to Shelby, our internet access has been very limited. As in, once a month, when we go down to Great Falls. That being the case, updating the blog has been rather difficult, especially since we typically keep so busy when we are down in Great Falls. Not much we can do about it, but I miss being able to share stories of the kids and record them for myself…

  1. The boys did swim lessons this summer (of which I never did get pictures of the official lessons… Bummer!) They really loved the swimming as well as their teachers, but I was rather disappointed that the teachers started them off with “backpacks” (in other words, flotation devices), especially since they were one-on-one with the teachers. This resulted in an over-dependence on the backpacks, and never learning how to swim. Next year, there will be no backpacks. Because I know they could have learned how to swim if they had never been introduced to the backpacks. Oh well. It was fun anyway. We walked most mornings to the pool (I think it was probably between 1/2 a mile to a mile…?) and the boys had the route memorized, ala Dora. “Cemetary, Big hill, Swimming pool! Say it with me…” It was very cute to hear them quote it, and fun to reinforce the directions. Olivia did lessons the first session (we did 2 session, a total of 4 weeks) but mostly just tolerated the water, although she never did cry.
  2. I’ve done a lot of canning jams over the past few weeks. A friend at church  gave me some Nanking Cherries (they are “bush cherries”, about the size of a larger blueberry, and somewhat tart) and so I attempted to make some jelly out of them. It never set, so we had cherry syrup. I also made some rhubarb jam. Then, I found out a neighbor had some Nanking Cherries that he didn’t want, so I made some more jelly, and three batches of jam, getting some good recipes from his wife.The jam was a little time consuming, since I had to pit the cherries and that took forever, but man alive, is that jam amazing!!! I am looking forward to canning some pears and probably some more peaches this year. We won’t be doing apricot jam this year however… We still have an overabundance of the apricot jam left from last year!!! :) However, this same neighbor has some plums growing and has promised me I could have some, and I am looking forward to canning some plum jam and making plum tarts.
  3. We have a little tomato garden growing… 10 plants in all. Now that we’ve actually had a little warm weather, they’ve really taken off. We will probably harvest the first of many, many tomatoes when we get home on Sunday. Our garden also consists of two pathetic little green pepper plants that are hanging in there but refuse to die, and some cilantro, a few garlic plants that we started from garlic that was starting to sprout, and perhaps some parsely and some chives (two or three of each of those plants… tiny and pathetic, but growing…) We planted a lot more than that, but alas, that’s all we got this year. Oh, and the house came equipped with rhubarb, asparagus, an apple tree (that is taking quite a beating from my boys who are ever anxious to partake of its fruit!!!), and a couple of small raspberry bushes. It’s been fun to eat the rhubarb, raspberries, and asparagus, and we are anxious for the small-ish apples to ripen.
  4. I have had a lot of fun baking breads. I’ve got a great Sour Dough starter, and Aaron bought me “The Bread Bakers Apprentice” and I have had a lot of fun reading and experimenting. I have a lot to learn about artisean bread baking (yeah, I WISH my bread looked this good!), and have already cracked the inside glass window of our oven (oops… always put a towel over the window if you plan on steaming in the oven…) but turning out bread that crackles and crunches and is holey and wonderful… SO worth it! Even if a loaf takes two days or so to get prepared to bake… patience pays off in the end!
  5. Olivia just started crawling this week. She’s a couple of weeks behind her brothers at this point, but she still managed to start crawling while still 6 months old. She’s our tiny little squirt, at perhaps not much more than 13 lbs at 7 month, and so it’s adorable to watch her crawl. She doesn’t look like she should be able to. She gets this huge grin on her face every time she does, though… She’s so proud of herself.

Speaking of Olivia… She has been such a great joy in our lives. She has been such an enjoyable baby– smiley all the time, pleasant, easy to predict and to put down to bed, not picky when it comes to food, calm… Heavenly Father knew I needed a calming presence in my life with my two energetic boys.  She adores her brothers (especially Charlie) and they adore her in return (again, especially Charlie, but Kade also.) She always has a happy smile when she sees them. They have been nothing short of amazing with her, taking care of her, sharing their pancakes with her, helping her eat all her cheerios, helping me with her diapers, playing with her, demonstrating crawling… Nothing makes a mom (and dad) prouder than to watch the older kids take such good care of their little sister. She’s been a wonderful addition to our family.

I have had some challenges with the boys, especially Kade, and some attitude problems, and checked out a couple of parenting books from the library. I hated losing my temper so much, especially since Kade was learning to be just as angry at me, and I needed some help. Here are the books I started reading. Not through either of them yet, but they both hit home and have helped already… “How to talk to your kids so they will listen, and listen to your kids so they will talk” and “Raising Good Children”. I have especially liked the “Raising Good Children” so far, as it goes through different “morality” stages that each kid will go through. Once I understood that 4 IS a difficult age, similar to 2, and understood a little better how to tackle his behavior, and what to expect from him, my life–and his– has become a lot better. I also started doing something I should have been doing for a long time… Singing to the kids at bed time. We sing all day long, but our bed-time routine has never had much “room” for singing. I thought it was time for a change. I have so many good memories of my parents singing to me at bed time. So, every night now I sing three songs– two of their choosing, in the “style” they want (silly, fast, like a goat, you name it…), tell them a scripture story, and then sing ” Angel Lullaby”, which my parents often sang for us as kids. It has helped the kids stay in bed SO much better… I should have started this tradition a long time ago.

Anyway, I will try to get some pictures up a little later tomorrow. It’s my bed time now!

Cynthia L. “Cindy” (Dobb) Matthews

Cynthia L. “Cindy” (Dobb) Matthews, 61, an assistant professor at the University of Great Falls who was active in her church and the community, died of breast cancer Thursday at her home.
Visitation is 2 to 8 p.m. Tuesday at Croxford Funeral Home and Crematory. Her funeral is 10 a.m. Wednesday at the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints, 1401 9th St. N.W., with visitation an hour prior to the service time at the church. Burial is noon Thursday at Sunset Memorial Cemetery near Butte.
Born March 2, 1949, in Butte, Mont., to William Henry Dobb and Wyona Louise (McCracken) Dobb, Cindy surrendered her mortal body to death on Thursday, May 27, 2010, at her home in Great Falls, following a courageous seven-year battle with cancer.
Cindy graduated from Butte High before moving to Rexburg, Idaho, in 1967. She attended Ricks College, earning an associate degree in sociology. She then moved to Provo, Utah, where she earned her bachelor’s degree in sociology from BYU in 1971. With degree in hand, Cindy moved to Glendive, Mont., where she accepted a position as a juvenile probation officer with the Department of Institutions.
Early in 1978, Cindy accepted a new position in Kalispell, where she met William B. Matthews, and after a lengthy courtship of eight months, they were married in the Cardston Alberta LDS temple Jan. 20, 1979.
In January 1979, Cindy and William moved to Great Falls, Mont., where Cindy obtained her master’s degree from the then-College of Great Falls. After the birth of their third child, Cindy resigned her position with the Department of Institutions and devoted the next nine years to raising their three children.
In 1990, Cindy accepted a position as an adjunct professor in the criminal justice program at the College of Great Falls, and after eight years she was promoted to associate, then assistant professor at the University of Great Falls. Cindy began working on her doctorate degree at Montana State University-Bozeman, but after her diagnosis of breast cancer and subsequent treatment, she was forced to choose between completing her dissertation and being a teacher to the students at UGF. As in the past, Cindy chose to help others with whatever time she had remaining. She gave up her quest for the advanced degree and devoted herself to the students at the University of Great Falls. This devotion was recognized in the spring of 2009, when Cindy was awarded an honorary doctorate degree from the University of Great Falls.
Throughout her adult life, Cindy was active in many community and church activities, including many years in Cub, Boy and Girl Scout programs. Cindy spent several years working in the “In School Scout” program at Longfellow and Whittier elementary schools. Additionally, Cindy spent many years on the Gore Hill County Water District Board of Directors. Cindy served her church as a primary teacher and leader, seminary and relief society teacher, and blazer day camp director.
Preceding her in death were her father and mother; and a grandchild, Maddie.
She is survived by her husband, William B. Matthews; their three children, Aaron (Amaree) Matthews of Shelby, Mont., Jenny W. Matthews of Fairbanks, Alaska, and Eric (Amy) Matthews of Great Falls; grandchildren Kade, Charlie and Olivia in Shelby, Hunter and Wyona in Fairbanks, and Rylie in Great Falls; and a brother, William Dobb, and a sister, Kathleen (Dobb) Stevens, both of Butte. Cindy accepted as part of her family the Brandon and Erica Schlecht family of Rexburg, Idaho, and the Quinn and Kasie Boehme family of Great Falls.

FINALLY

Well after months of work and waiting for a phone call. I finally received it this morning. I am on my way to becoming a federal employee. So long to contract work! Good bye to not knowing where we would live in 6 months. Hello steady work that I love to do. Hello to staying put for a while.

SMILES all around!

Moving Day, coming right up!

The day is soon approaching. FINALLY! After 4 1/2 months of being separated, our family is moving BACK up to Shelby this Saturday. While there is still some uncertainty about Aaron’s job, things are looking up. And we’re tired of being apart. We have found a nice little house to rent, and are super excited to be back up with the friends we have made in Shelby. Aaron is excited to actually start eating food again (no, Aaron, cheese and crackers do NOT count as food!), and I’m excited to toss the kids off when he gets home when I’ve had a bad day. I am looking forward to having my own kitchen where I know where everything is. We are excited to read and play games in the evening once the kids are down for the night (we won’t have any live TV, just DVDs, and we won’t have the internet for a while, until our Condo sells) and to have friends over for dinner and games. We are both thrilled about being able to live out of a dresser instead of boxes, of having a place for everything, and just to be in our own space together again. We are excited to be in a ward where we are actually members of the congregation instead of extended visitors, to have callings, and to be able to contribute.

We also want to publicly thank the L family for allowing Aaron to rent a room in your house. I know you’ll never read this, but we’re grateful.  Also, thank you to Aaron’s parents for letting us tear apart your home. I am sure you’re looking forward to some peace and quite again :)

4 more days!

(btw– this does mean that in 4 days I will not be able to blog very often, nor will I be on facebook)

Somebody’s sleeping in MY bed!

I was trying to capture a smile with our camera. This is pretty close.

Charlie has some one-on-one time with his sister before Kade got up from his nap. It was sweet to hear him talk to her :) Whenever she’s cooing, the boys always ask me what she’s saying. I always tell them she’s saying just how much she loves her brothers. She does. But they sure adore her too!

We went to put Olivia to bed last night and were surprised to find this:

 

Yes, there IS a pacifier in Kermits mouth.

Kade had put his “baby” to bed. Olivia’s bed. Aaron and I could not stop laughing and had to take a picture of it! This actually isn’t too uncommon. They both have been insisting that I swaddle their respecive stuffed animals– Kade has me swaddle Kermit (he actually was “nursing” Kermit the other day, despite my reminders that only MOMMIES make mommy juice!) and Charlie has me swaddle his bear. But this WAS the first time we found a pacifier in a stuffed animals’s mouth!

No Bite Nail Polish and thumb sucking

It’s official. I bought the “No-Bite” fingernail polish to help wean Kade from thumb sucking. It was an instant success. And, Kade was VERY good humored about it! He would stick the tip of his thumb in his mouth, get a huge grin on his face, and say “Bleck! Yuck! Bleck!” The best part was that it was just a joke to him.

And he no longer sucks his thumb. I give THAT a two-thumbs up!

Spit-up Diaries

Each of my kids have been so different as babies. It’s shocking, I know. Really, it IS quite amazing how different they are– how each of the pregnancies were different, how each of them as babies have been different. All of them enjoyable, but all of them different.

For instance, each of my babies have been completely different when it comes to spit-up. Now, in this case, I do have a preference. None. That would have been Charlie. Kade spit-up until he was 15 months old. No joke. It wasn’t tons of spit-up at once, but it was pretty consistant until about the time Charlie was born. And, Kade was (and still kind of is) a non-stop drooler. He’s finally starting to stop drooling, although it still happens. Now, Olivia has been yet another completely different story. She doesn’t spit-up all the time. And most times it’s not much spit up. But on occasion, she has projectile spit-up, and in mass quantities. She spits-up while I’m feeding her, changing her, talking to her. This usually results in at least a change of clothing, both for her and for me, and sometimes results in a shower for the both of us. Yesterday I had finished nursing and burping her and was talking with her, holding her at arms length so I could really watch her, when out it came. It flew over a foot and a half. All over my shirt. Just as we were getting ready to leave. I wiped up as much as possible but left with the wet shirt. (It is Montana, which means I knew it would be dry before I got to where I was going. Gotta love that about dry air, I guess! Quick evaporation!) She also is an occasional drooler. (Now, with the whole  projectile thing… does that mean that she’s got an abnormally strong diaphragm? She must be a future singer!!!)

But, look at her. How can you not help loving her when she’s so adorable, even if she projectile spit-ups! While I have yet to capture it on camera, she’s starting to get really smiley. And she has an adorable smile! She’s also starting to “communicate” a lot more, and the boys are always asking me what she’s saying. I usually tell them that she’s saying how much she loves her brothers. Because, she does! (She is currently 7 1/2 weeks old)

This is a typical “Elvis Smirk” that Olivia does. I love it.

Like I mentioned in the previous post, Kade is always, always trying to kiss her. While in this picture Olivia is screaming, it’s not because of the kissing, I swear! She decided she was tired. She’s very tolerant of the kiss monster of a brother.

The boys have taken to pretending they’re babies. They lie down on Liv’s blankets and try to swaddle themselves, and pretend to cry. It was all I could do to get them to smile instead of pretend-cry in this picture.

Well, I love these kids. While it is sometimes quite stressful, they are mostly sweet and wonderful kids :)

Some Frequently Asked Questions. And Their Answers.

With a newborn, and especially with two very young older brothers, I am asked the same questions quite frequently. And they are good questions, with even better answers. These two are the ones I get the most:

Is Olivia a good baby? Does she sleep well?

Yes, and yes. As I suspected when I was pregnant with her, she has been a very mellow, very good baby. She really only cries under three circumstances– she’s hungry, she’s tired, or she’s in her car seat. It’s true. She’s a generally very happy baby.

Right after I feed her, if I lay her down on her back on the floor she will coo and talk and smile and kick and wiggle very happily for a good 15 minutes. She loves to be held, though, and when those 15 minutes are up she really doesn’t like much else. As for sleeping, she’s been amazing. My boys never went longer than 3 hours or so at night between feedings until they were weaned. Probably just as much my fault as theirs, but still. Never longer than that. They would go right back to sleep afterwards, but I woke up exhausted for a long time. Not so Olivia. For the past few weeks, she’s been going to sleep around 9-9:30 p.m., and most nights wakes up at 4:00 a.m. to eat, and then is back up again at 7-7:30 a.m. to eat. I am waking up rested. With a newborn! (She’s 7 weeks now) She then goes back down about an hour later until about 11-11:30. I feed her, and about an hour and a half later she’s down again for another long stretch. She generally is up around 3:00 or 4:00, I feed her again, and then she’s up off and on until she goes down for the night, with some power feeding (cluster feeding) going on with some short catnaps in between. It’s been awesome! And she’s learning already how to self-soothe and get herself to sleep. Seriously. The. best. baby. ever!

How to the boys like her?

Like her? No. They LOVE her. ADORE her. Kade, especially. He can’t stop kissing her. He can’t resist! He is totally and completely enamored. Charlie, too, but not nearly as bad. Case in point– during Sacrament Meeting yesterday, the boys had a hard time staying sitting… They kept trying to get into the eisleway where Olivia was dozing in her carseat, to give her a kiss. Kade tries to kiss her as often as he can– when I’m feeding her, when she’s sleeping, when she’s on the floor or the couch, when we’re holding her, when he’s supposed to be eating dinner… He’ll steal as many kisses from her as he can. It’s very sweet.

As I said, Kade seems to be especially attached and protective of Olivia. Saturday, we were in the car, heading home after running a few errands. Olivia just woke up and was screaming because she was hungry. I tried to get her to take the pacifier (a funny thing in and of itself… she doesn’t seem to like them much, gagging on them and whatnot…) to calm her down, but she wouldn’t take it. Since I knew there was nothing more I could do until we got home, I just let her scream. But then, suddenly, it stopped. I turned around, and saw Kade, holding in her pacifier, stroking her head, and telling her, “shhhh, shhhhh… You’re alright baby. You’ll be just fine…” Heart meltingly sweet.

He also often comes up to her and says, in the sweetest, most tender voice, “Oh, she’s so small!” or “She’s SO cute!” “She’s so sweet!”

So far, this having three kids hasn’t been too bad! Now, we just need to get back up to Shelby so we can be together as an entire family, and so daddy can spoil his baby girl and his two baby boys and his wife ;) And, as far as we can tell, that will be in 2 weeks. 2 WEEKS! Hurray!

Hoar Frost, Valentines, and a Cute Dress

Hoar Frost

This year has been an incredible year for hoar frost. Freezing Fog. I love hoar frost. It’s gorgeous and fragile.  While Marissa was here a month ago, she took some beautiful pictures of the hoar frost that greeted her. See them here: Missy’s Hoar Frost. Aaron also took some lovely pictures of hoar frost on one of his daily long drives north. What I love is how directional and beautiful they are. Manna was described as looking like hoar frost in Exodus, and white hair is called “Hoar Hair” in Isaiah. Here are a couple more of the pictures that Aaron took one exceptionally frosty morning:

Valentines Day

Our dear friend Beth invited us over to decorate valentines day cookies last Wednesday. We had a blast! Especially Kade and Charlie, who could not keep their fingers out of the frosting or their mouths! It was a welcomed reprieve after being at home for a couple of days without getting out. Olivia slept the entire time, and the boys had a great time playing with Alex, Allen, Conner, baby Josh, and each other. I had a great time socializing with my friends Beth and Carissa. We will miss this crowd once we move!

Cute Dress

And finally, some recent pictures of Olivia. She has been such a fun addition to our family. The boys absolutely adore her and are constantly trying to kiss her, no matter what she is doing, whether it be sleeping, eating, or just hanging out. Kade is especially attached to her, which I think is really sweet.

She is a great baby– a good sleeper, at least at night. Several nights in a row, she’s only awakened to eat once, and the other nights it’s only twice, the second feeding being around 5:00 a.m. Then she goes back to sleep. It’s wonderful. She just started smiling on Sunday, valentines day (funny, eh?), and has started cooing and squealing. It’s so precious!

 She is always furrowing her eyebrows like this, like she’s concentrating really hard, trying to take everything in. Her eyes look like they will be like her dad and her brother’s eyes… bright, deep blue. LOVE it!

And girls are just SO fun to dress. I mean, c’mon! Boys clothese are never THIS adorable!

Charlie – 2 and 1/2 pictures

So we are pretty late in getting Charlie’s 2 1/2 pictures. Sears had their GREAT sale – $7.99 and NO sitting fee. We love it. So the result is a HAM of a Charlie being good for yet another picture being taken. He had alot of fun and I was grateful that I was able to be there this time. You really cannot see where kade took a pair of scissors to Charlie’s head AGAIN!

Marissa’s visit

First of all, would you believe that we actually went the ENTIRE time Marissa was here without getting a picture of her with any of us, until this morning right before I took her to the airport, and even then, it was only of her and me, I having just rolled out of bed… ::sigh:: PATHETIC. And she has the picture, so I can’t even post it!

We had a wonderful time with Aunt Missy here. She was such a HUGE help for me, letting me sleep in until 8:00 or 8:30, or even 9:00 one morning. She played with the boys, making awesome train tracks, building garages and big buildings out of blocks, taking them out to play in the snow, reading books to them, taking them to Safari Land,  teaching them how to talk while plugging their noses (it’s ALL about the pee-ew stinky plant!!!)… SHe also helped me send a package to Aaron for his upcoming birthday. Although I probably would have survived last week, she made last week much more pleasant for me. Marissa also helped with dishes, baths, scripture study, holding baby Olivia, putting the kids down for naps and down to bed… I really was spoiled to have her here, at the expense of her family, who went without their mom and their wife for a week. Missy– we really do “Missy” you a lot already. I want you back! Can you come?

While she was here, she also took some pictures of our family and newborn pictures of Olivia. While I direct you to her photography site, Marissa Noe Photography, she said I could post a few up on my blog for your viewing pleasure :) I am really excited to have these pictures of my growing family!

Another woman in bed with my husband…

Having a little girl has been a new experience for us in the Matthews household. Aaron doesn’t quite know what to do with himself– he goes shopping for something and comes back with a cart full of baby girl clothes (only a slight exaggeration) … To be fair, he does throw in some consolation prizes for the boys… But he never went and bought clothes for them “just because”… He’s been tempted to go back on our agreement of no babies in bed with us, because Olivia is SUCH a cuddler… and I am finding another woman in bed with my husband. I feel cheated! Of course, all of this behavior is also rather endearing and adorable, and I love to see him with his little baby girl.

But then, there was LAST NIGHT. I had fed, and fed, and FED, and changed, and changed, and CHANGED Olivia from about 6:00 p.m. until 10:30 p.m… with just 20 minutes or so in between feedings. (These “power feedings” or cluster feedings are actually pretty nice, because she does actually sleep through the night with the occasional feeding every few hours) And she was still fussy, but obviously tired. So, I handed her off to Aaron, who was in bed waiting for me to finish feeding Olivia AGAIN. She was lying on her back, and fussing, so Aaron put his hand under her, turned her on her side, and snuggled with her. INSTANTANEOUSLY, this is what happened:   (taken with my cellphone… quality is not the best…): All I am saying is that we had BETTER be moving to Shelby REAL quick, because if I can’t get my baby girl to sleep, I know who can!

Jeffery R. Holland

One of my FAVORITE General Authorities of the Church is Jeffery R. Holland. I love to listen to him speak. I finally found 2 of my most favorite talks from Elder Holland to new mission presidents. You can download them then burn them. The audio is not the best however I hope you find as much joy in them as I have.

Atonement –

Doctrine –

Let me know what you think :-)

Blast from the Past

As Amaree and Olivia were coming home yesterday I remembered that I have seen a picture of myself holding my sister after she was born. Well it was about 3 months after but still. The chair is still at my parents house. So I arranged to have the chair upstairs when they came home. After getting the kids used to baby we had them sit in the same chair and hold their baby sister.

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Olivia Esther Matthews

After 9 months – and a wonderful day – Olivia has joined our little growing family. Since this was a “planned” C-section – it made it alittle easier. I was ready – :-)

But of course our Doctor would not even let me NEAR the open area. Owell thats life. i did get to watch. After the past couple of C-Sections that were NOT planned this was a welcomed relief. If I recall all we talked about was computer support help from Dell and how our Doctor will call me from now on :-) olivia joined our family at 10:05 am on Saturday jan 9th 2010. our Doctor came in on her day off and even when she was not all call. WE LOVE YOU DOCTOR LEE! Mom did great and is recovering fine – We hope to have them both home tomorrow – of course that is after Amaree makes going number 2 her number 1 priority.

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